MY OUTFIT OF THE DAY WAS ALSO GREEN!! πππ Me and my mum spe..
Added 2021-07-09 06:46:04 +0000 UTCMY OUTFIT OF THE DAY WAS ALSO GREEN!! πππ
Me and my mum spent all day together, we went to the park near our hometown where I remember playing as a kid!
Everything is brand new now and nothing was like it was before.
It was cold when we showed up so mother offers me this beanie to put on and told me that a significant amount of body heat is lost from the head so wearing a beanie would hell keep me warm?? π€£
WELL I DID ID!
And bruhh lol. It was fucking nice not having my hair all over my face or on my shoulders or without the tension of having to put it in a tight ass bun π₯±π΄π
I am so ready to shave this shit all off.
Theres a lot of people of my TikTok who seem quite clueless as to why on earth I would do something like shave my head if βI have found to love myselfβ
I let most of them wonder because they couldnβt hear my explanation from where they are.
But sometimes I feel inspired to share.
I got into make up and doing my hair around the time I started puberty and becoming SLEF CONSCIOUS LOL.
And I will say it was not a healthy relationship to either because I soon began to only feel cute or worthy or lovable when u was all dolled up!!
It was TOXICCC
I remember my mother taking away my make up before anything else when I was fuckin up cuz she knew how detrimental that was to my mentally π€£π³
I was convinced that my JAW was the ugliest thing on the planet and I needed to hide it from the world if I was to be treated kindly π³ππΌ
I was. 14 but STILL LOL I believed this shit π€£
As I have grown, and gone thru the DEPTH OF HELL WHEN IT COMES TO HATING THY SELF WITH A FEIRY PASSION.
self love seemed to be the way to go!
And my how the magic began after that.
Here we are now.
I picked up my passion for make up again but coming from a completely different perspective, now it is art that I can share on the most presentable canvas, my own face..
And my hair which I used to hide behind my true authentic self no longer feels like it should be part of me, like it is a foreign object.
I am so ready to literally cut off the insecurities and be reborn on my 22nd solar return πβ¨
Anyway after that happened me and mum had so much fun listening to the radio and flipping thru the songs. A lot or prince came on and we talked about how some people like him are just so out of the ordinary to the point where itβs just undeniable. And they are just fully embodying their true selves.
Price is a feeling badass
Imagine someone trying to put him in a regular occupation.
Itβs like some people are just out of this world.
I like to think that maybe prince was just one of the many few people on the planet who learned to become unapologetically himself while most of us donβt seem to to that sort of unknown chance for fear of ruffling some peoples feathers.
Itβs interesting to me.
