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Describe my last 4 posts. ๐ต๐ปโโ๏ธ
(In my feelies and mind rn, so thereโs a lot of typing. I also havenโt talked to anyone in a while.)
Some conversations and topics make me regress socially and mentally. Iโm looking forward to a future with more positivity and guidance. I miss having fun and being a pocket full of sunshine. I havenโt been like that in a while. I donโt really like a lot of how I am right now, especially with certain people or strangers.
I would love for more joy to come into my life. Mostly because playing ghetto therapist does come at an emotional cost tp me. Sometimes, I put myself in less than stellar situations because I think I have to help or feel a need to make a positive difference in someoneโs life. Sometimes, they canโt see it or receive it and I have to be respectful of that. I want to be mindful of the conversations and people I take into my life, too. If that makes sense. I want to be emotionally rich if I have a choice. I want to feel happy, free and loving.
Itโs a challenge to find good, high quality people to be around sometimes. Especially in certain industries. Most industries, honestly. Tyler the Stallion was really nice to me this morning and gave me some soft guidance I appreciated. Iโm waiting on texts from my platonic friends in Orlando.
I went off on Chad Thundercock super nasty these past 3 days. Idk whatโs wrong with me or us. We feel a lot better after yelling at each other on phone. I think. Iโm not sure. He deals with a lot. I donโt think a lot of the stuff either of us does to each other has been okay. Neither of us want to feel uncared about or stressed. I still need some more time to process and break away or mend things.
Iโve been seriously toxic this year and I didnโt understand why. I still am, especially with Chad. Also, him with me. I donโt think either of us are bad guys, weโre just both stupid, stressed and broke in all sorts of Ways. Itโs okay to take a break and be nice to myself. Also be alone. Iโm looking forward to packing up my stuff and moving. I know my father said heโd be back from Europe in a week, but I never actually know when heโll be back for gang gang or if he stayed in that country. Iโll clean, home Reno as much as I can, downsize, wake up, etc today.
I wanted to go to Disney for Halloween or my birthday. Maybe christmas! ๐๐ฅฐโค๏ธ๐ Iโll work on cleaning my place. My place is like embarrassingly gross and depressing. Itโs a depression apartment I feel trapped in. Chibiโs trap house is going to be the name of the fan club for chaturbate I think.
Today, Iโm gonna clean some more and try to get a handle on this old place. The ac I think is from 1669 and my t๐ญilet has been randomly screaming like itโs moaning myrtleโs long winded fart. This place honestly just sucks. (I canโt get it out of my mind or stop bitching about it yet. Thanks for entertaining me and letting me talk while I am growing and progressing. Every morning I wake up, extremely mad at my floor and ceiling. Cuz Iโm stupid and a lot of the situations I have going on are stupid. It makes me feel better to just say how I feel rn. )
I know the 30th is the usual deadline for the clean room. Feel free to join me if you struggle with cleaning ur place, too. I donโt mind failing again. Iโll try harder. I deserve a clean space, a nice space and peace. Anyways. Thanks for passing by or hanging out. You guys make me feel like I kinda exist. Thank you. I love you.
If you need me to babysit you or you need a full ass conversation from me to get shit done, you are not for me. Im tired and deserve smart people working for me. Donโt fucking play stupid with me. Get it together and make yourself useful before you lose my attention.
Going for a walk and meditation before showering and restarting myself. There better not be any offensive, disrespectful bullshjt in my dms when I fucking get back.
Good luck, Chad. Iโm sorry I didnโt take care of you good and that it wasnโt enough. I hope you find someone better than me. ๐ด๐๐ผ๐
I need someone attractive, smart, kind, funny, fast, caring, cute, lovingโฆ. Idk what else I want.
The last time I had real sex was with the Jeweler. Iโm trying to forget his eyes. Send me pics with your eyes uncensored. ๐คฉ I know some of yโall are catfishing me and Idc. Put chris evans or tron weasley as your profile pic for all I care. If you can turn me on, Iโm yours. ๐ฅฐ
Some random minute video of me! In the black office dress and red lipstick. ๐ Iโm self soothing my thoughts and emotions, today! I got to go out for a nice brunch and did a whole bunch of stuff. Iโm going to miss hooking up with the jeweler but, itโs not the end of the world. We ended amicably and he wished me the best in finding other partners and that he hopes I have fun in Orlando. He said good things and I only want to see him happy.
Tell me Iโm your sweetheart. ๐โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ๐๐๐ฅฐ๐น๐บ๐ธ๐โญ๏ธ๐ข๐บ๐ธ๐น๐จ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ณ๐บ๐ธ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฅฐโค๏ธ๐น๐๐๐น๐ผ๐จ๐บ๐ฒ๐ฝโค๏ธ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ข๐งง๐ฅฐ๐โจ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ฌ๐โค๏ธ๐โค๏ธ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ณ๐ฉ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฟ๐ต๐ธ
Hope everyoneโs having a fun filled weekend! Thank you for taking such good care of me! Iโm gonna make some content today. I love you! โบ๏ธ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐
Pros:
I speak English.
I can pull of crazy girlfriend trope, weirdo trope or hot bitch trope at the same time.
Iโll let you wear my panties as a face mask.
Share a fun fact about yourself!
Every morning, I play fuck tha police by nwa. ๐ฅบ๐๐ฅฐ๐น๐ผ๐โค๏ธ๐๐น๐ผ๐บ๐ธ๐บ๐ธ๐ฏ๐๐น๐๐๐
Where did all these massive studs in my DMโs come from??? Iโm having a great day so far. My bathrooms are almost all done and clean. ๐
Hope everyoneโs weekend is good and fun. ๐
P.s. I donโt give a fuck.
Kiss me more? ๐ฅฐ
I donโt give a fuck if you think youโre ugly and worthless. Youโre mine. Youโre not a loser. I only talk to winners. Hmph. ๐ค๐๐โจ
Just woke up!
Send me to the top 0.69 percent!
Thank you putting me in the top 1%. ๐๐ฅฐ๐๐บ๐ธ๐๐ผIโm grateful and thankful for all of you. Iโm making December my birthday month for now. It doesnโt really feel like I got to celebrate this month right. ๐ I wanted to be in Disney for birthday but I canโt go until someone comes back for Gang Gang. Iโm patient, though. Iโll see who can join me for Disney this month. ๐ฅฐ I want to make more friends and m๐๐t more awesome people. I deserve the happy life. ๐๐๐